A litre of Tears (Memoirs of Kito Aya)

"Just being alive is such a beautiful and wonderful thing"

"How do i walk, so that i won't fall down?
How can i eat my bentou faster without choking?
How can i, ignore other people's glances?
Everyday, i think about these things again and again.
Going to high school, going to university, going to work.
I think about the future in such way, and i would see no hope.
I can't see that small light of hope. Due to this disease, my life has shattered.
Even though its sad, it is reality.
No matter how much i cry, I can't run away from this disease.
Even if i want to return to the past, I can't go back in time.
Because of this, I realise things for the first time.
The hands of my classmates who are so willing to support me are so warm.
Acquiring this disease, wasn't just about losing my health.
The body i have, is now me.
As for this obstacle, I will take on the burden with the me that i am right now and to continue to live on with confidence.
A road chosen by myself, step by step i want to find that light.
To be able to smile and tell everyone this, I have at least cried one litre of tears.." -

Ktto Aya, a 15 years old girl who was diagnosed with a disease called "Spinocerebellar Degeneration", and was able to continue her life until her death at the age of 25.

I really look up to her that despite her disease and knowing her forth comings she wakes up everyday with a smile determined not to emotionally affect her family and still manage to get herself to school wanting to live a normal life like any other kids. I wonder how would i be like? I would probably sulk in my room or try to kill myself.

Aya simply wished to live until the end of her life, and the purpose of writing in the diary was to remind herself to not give up. She shed tears many times, at the same time encompassed by the rich love and support from her family, friends, and boyfriend. Her diary “1 Litre of Tears” was published after her death, because of its inspiring and courageous message of "Just being alive is such a lovely and wonderful thing"

I felt ashamed after reading her diary. I was blessed with healthy mind and body. Yet i complained to no end as if i am the only victim in this world. As if being a slow learner is a curse and being stupid should not get me into completing my task. Sure i do hate to get help from any other friends but i should at least try to help myself. Im not even trying and i already start complaining about how unfair life is.

Her story has touches many. The japanese media have even make her story into drama as well as movie. I love especially this part of her diary. She wrote how much she embraced her life even she was enduring the pain. I could feel so much pain in her about accepting her disease and all. Can you imagined how much pain has burdened her?

If you cant find the book to read you should at least watch the drama.

Worth watching!

Comments

[biq]

did u know i got whole collection of the drama?

[Bilqis]

duh.
i watch it twice!
with ur collection and u didnt know??
i read the book in both korean and english...
see how much i adore this memoir??

[mily]

plz plz plz
i wach the drama and it was really really nice and i cry 1000000tears
but pleaeaeaeaaeas help me frome wher i can order the diary this is my email pleaeaeas add me lovejp@windowslive.com
and thaaaaaaaanx

[Bilqis]

Hey im sorry to tell you that there is no publication for english version of a litre of tears.
You can either read in the japanesse or the korean english version.
However you can visit http://onelitre.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=OneLitre&nextdate=3%2f7%2f2006+5%3a50%3a33.200
for the summary version of one litre of tears in english.
Sorry i cant help much.

[ve]

진짜감동적이다.드라마를봐서 1리터의 눈물이난지도 모르겠다...볼만한것이다 ^^

[Bilqis]

너 누구죠?