드디어 대학생이라고 합니다

I am officially an university undergraduate student after 8 months of korean language training.

I have been waiting this for a lifetime. From the moment i stepped in the primary school, i always imagined my life in university, wondered how is it going to be like. For that particular period, i always thought i will probraly further my education in Hong Kong or China until.. I dropped my studies in Mandarin which directly crashed my dream because i already killed my pathway towards the direction.

Then i lose hope. I knew very well my family background and that is impossible to ask my mum to send me overseas because that is too much to ask. All i knew is that i have to go to UNIVERSITY. I competed and completed up to SPM level and i am proud to say i did fairly well as an average Malaysian students.

After SPM result was realeased, due to mum's acquaintance's daughter who has the similar result back 2 years and was currently doing LAW in Oxford (which was elaine and my dream university, i remember we used to motivate each other to study hard because we wanted to enter Oxford together..those days..)  so yeah, i was encouraged to apply JPA scholarships and other scholarships as well.. i remember i worked so hard to apply as many scholarships as i can thinking that at least i will have chance with one of those i applied. Nevertheless, my efforts come in vain as none of them replied me. Relatives and friends thinking that i was simply Malay and that the chances to gain scholarship will be easier for me.. But seriously, NO.  I could list countless reason why i wasnt selected by JPA but might provoke some of my readers..

Anyway, back to the topic. After that, i had to make decision. I was given chance to do local Matriculation but not with UM Matriculation and i was too afraid of how my life is going to chance due to culture collision..and i was afraid how the students over there will accept me or not.. i was afraid that i will get depressed because i had the same experiences when i studied i local high school.. and i didnt want to leave home and the court.. i didnt want to leave mom and my baby cat.. i wanted something more challenging for me like A-levels but i couldnt afford to.. i didnt want to lose my chance to represent the state for basketball..though in the end i didnt make the cut because i chose the harder path instead.. STPM. Almost everyone i met while studying STPM contemplated that i was dumb for not going for Matriculation but people never understood why and i was ashamed to share my feelings. Practically, everyone was dissapointed with my decision. Yes, i was dumb but i never regretted. Never. STPM life has been a hell to me travelling back and forth between home and school, shouldering duties as seniors, dealing with money on behalf of the library... but from there i met my true friends whose heart and pure and sincere.. Friendships that i build that i will cherish it for life.. Anger management, Home Management, Network management.. whatever you name it, i learnt it all within 2 years of form6 life. Shame to say, i didnt manage my difficulties well. I dissapointed myself with my results..

Still. Alhamdulillah, God gave me a second chance. A scholarship. To Korea. A dream that i never dare to dream of. As if it was Heaven's calling. I have always had interest in Korean and even took decision to sign up with TAR College  for language class using the money i earned from part time job. Thank God, before i could even fulfill my plan i got the calling. To KOREA> to study the language itself. You see, that is why faith and intention is important. I cry myself to sleep every night to get away from home, not that i didnt like Malaysia.. is just that i fight so hard for the opportunity but no one seems to recognise my capacity.

Up to here. Till today. Im happy even i face many despairs, hurts, cries and dissapointments occasionally. But im glad that i m here. Im glad i make my way here. Cimbing to the top of the hill. Almost there, victory. I am officially an University student. Though might be late compare to some of my friends where i used to watched them going back and forth to University with envies.. I am one right now. Oversea. Doing something i want. This path is not easy but i will work my way up. Until i graduate.I thank God for giving me second chance to prove myself. I thank the Korean Government for accepting me. I thank my mum for allowing me coming to Korea and for raising me so well and healthy. I thank my brother for all the support he gives, that he not in once lose faith in me. I thank my baby cat for his companions during my time of dpressions. I thank my other family members for their blessings and prayers. I thank my best friends for their never ending care and love. I will be attending first class of University tomorrow and look forward to it. Im looking forward to my life here with the rest of smart NIIED students which i thank God 8 out of 11 of them are in the engineering and natural science department. We could use a lot of help and encourge each other to study...

          

Here is the schedule that i register but there are some amendments to make because i took the wrong Chemistry class.

           

           

This is the schedule i made this morning. Classes that i intend to attend. Just hope there are space for me (:

As you can see, most of my classes are in humanities. We are not allowed to do our major as foreigner in freshmen year due to our lack of ability in the korean languages. Well, i think INHA quite nicely planned. At least we can earn our credits from the language study. Insya-Allah, pray hard. i will graduate in 4 years time.

Bad news is, sorry my best friends in Malaysian. I made a promise that i couldnt fulfill. I will not be going back to Malaysia this Summer because i will still have class going on. Miss you guys so much. KerZhing already left to Aussie.. aihz.. Lesley, guess we have to celebrate our birthdays through webcam eh? ㅋㅋㅋ

Signing off. Till we meet again.

Comments

[biq]

I think I already know the reason why u didnt get the scholarship.

[Bil]

why?

[정석휘]

빌키 안녕~

어떻게 하다가 여기까지 왔네

잘 지내?

[Bil]

조장님! 안녕~
내 브러그 어떻게 찾았어?
응~ 잘지내..넌?
앞으로 잘 방문하기를 바래..
학교 이미 시작한다..어땠어?

[jen]

hi, u are really lucky to get the scholarship
i am applying for the graduate studies scholarship and going to submit my application next week
hopefully, luck will be with me this time
although i know the chance is very very low...

good luck in your studies and have fun in korea =)