Last day of 2011. I have so much to say, to many people to thank to..
In summary, i have the worst ever start of the year but I m gonna end it elegantly.
Goodbye 2011, you been good to me, taught me how to grow up through the worst circumstances, hit me hard into pool of garbage is as though my life is worthless; as though my life was a living hell. Reality hurts. That's what is life all about.
Every clouds has a silver lining. I was tormented by my own fears, drowning into the pool of hopelessness. Along the way, did i not noticed i start giving lights to others like never before. I never knew my experience could enlighten many. I never knew my presence could brighten many. I never knew happiness was that simple, that could be felt by putting smiles on someone else's face. There are too little i knew about my own capacity. My life turned 360 degree around when i find myself to inspire and to be inspired around hundreds of those who have stepped foot in my life.
There are times i wanted to give up at the same time there are voices in my head telling me to keep holding on. Until one day i figure out the best way to get the hell out of this torment is to change my thoughts. It wasnt an easy task to control your mind, let not change the way it thinks. But one thing for sure, dont let your mind control you; be the other way round. Often i find the need to fully understand the encryption of the Quran, it thought me too many powerful things to be discover. I wish i am good in reciting Quran.
HE,Above all, GOD has HIS ways of making things works. HE, taught me the true meaning of "blessing in disguise". Which keeps me moving on. I learn to count my blessings through others' eyes. Praise on HIM for giving me the strength to move on. For giving me the second chance to get up and live all over again.
Needless to say, my mum which comes before everything was my sole inspiration to my discovery. I never say neither i ever admit this, because i was too arrogant to admit this. Mummy, I love you and thank you for your support throughout everything. Im not a very romantic person neither do i like talking on the phone/skype or whatsover.. I dont talk. I just want you to know that I love you.
Thank you those who were there during my worst time, Sarah Chong, Deborah Lee,Labiq 乐比, Rheya Zebo, Thi Thisann, Aye Aye Thant .. i know i been a little stubborn and hard to handle (been a bitch sometimes esp to my bro xD) but thank you for your prayers, time and for having faith in me. You guys are my angels~
Coming 2012, i vow to be a better person in every aspects of life.
Lets not put our past aside; learn a lesson from it. Cherish tomorrow.
Last but not least, forgive me if i ever wronged you.
Happy 2012 ♥
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#Jan 2011. Kidd in Korea. Love catching up and thank you for being there during my worst time. <3

#Heartache 2011

#Fish Therapy with close friends <3

#Narita Airport. I must acknowledge a friendly korean 오빠 who noticed me crying alone while waiting for my next flight and came and sat next to me. He pretended as if he dont know Japanesse and start speaking Japanesse to me asking about next flight information to strike a conversation. He never asked why was i crying but instead bombarded me with countless questions to make me stop crying. In short, he accompanied me until we both landed Incheon International Airport and send me home. We exchanged number but i ... We accidentally met in 이대 one day but i never told him i changed my number. Until today, i still regret that i never personally buy him dinner to thank him.

#February 2011. INHA GRADUATION DAY.

#March 2011

#April 2011. Tracy arrived Korea February 2011. We finally meet and chat and talking too much to her although her mouth got no filter makes me lots worst and got better. Still love her nanyway. I am amazed by how God plan things for us. Everything just happened at the right place, right time.

#April 2011. When the temperature gets better. Glad to have 'another half', Xufan 언니 of my basketball life. "Once a baller, always a baller". I finally understood that i cannot live without basketball/sports outta of my life. Games heals my wounds. The more i fall, the more i immune to fall.

#April 2011. 봄. Where i blend my love for flowers, potrait and photography with. I cannot forget how i fall in love with this little sis of mine, Nomin. I was never a 'big' sister to anybody. Having her in my life gives me the privelage to be one. Sometimes i dislike the feeling that i am no longer the youngest; but at the same time i cant have everything else in the world my own way i figure out i need to learn to grow up and held some 'duty/responsibility' which proven to speed up my recovery.


#April 2011, Spring picnic at 관악산 with Indonesian friends. Stepping stone to my reappearance into social limelight.

#April 2011. My primary bff, Mayfong in Korea! Still loving her as always though distance grew out of us.

#May 2011.



#May 2011. It wwas Children's day in Korea. It was public holiday. Some of the most random thing i never done in Korea (though i always do that in Malaysia since i can drive). Went to Cheonan to spend some time with my Baby (Afghan bff), stayed up all night, and just decided to rent a car and drive all the way to Boseong Greentea farm. It wasnt a planned trip. Drive whole night taking turns to sleep. In the end, we the crammed into 찜질방 as we arrive and only do the 구경 after we all awake. One of the most memorable thing i ever did in 2011. Thank you Baby and baby's you know who for all the support. We hardly meet but i feel close at heart. Love you.


#May 2011. Hi Seoul Festival & Kahtun & LK's visit to Korea. My ballmates and my lil sis from China. Spending time with you guys explored wonders. Had great time talking about and catching up with each others life like we used to be. Miss our yumcha sessions as always.

#June 2011. Blood Donation. So glad that i found a reason to live-- my precious O RH+ blood can save many lives! Left with my beloved roomies, Thantthant.

#June 2011. My first photo 전시회 with my 인사동사진동호회.

#June 2011. Battling with finals with roomies. End of first half sem.

#June 2011. My first closed lecture about my life as a student in Inha to all international freshmans. I gave speech in KOREAN! Something i 'll never forget for life! given that i had public fright. From here, i start picking up skills to talk in public. Another stepping stone to self-revolution and recovery .

#June 2011. The birth of my GALAXY S II. Thanks to 조교 언니! Love you!

#June 2011. Early birthday celebration with Roomies.

#June 2011. 자취 생활. Summer holidays. Learn to be independent. Cook. Wash. Clean. Pay rental. Pay electricity. Urban life. 24hours freedom. Ramadhan discipline. Mosquitous. Cold shower. High expenses. Living out of the comfort of dormitory.

#July 2011. Bersih 2.0. One of the most eventful thing i did in 2011. Represent the voice of Malaysian students in Korea who were suppressed by Malaysian Embassy for Bersih 2.0 rally. Only 10 Malaysians involved in Korea compared to the number of Malaysian overseas students worldwide. Still proud even better if we could observe change/revolution in Malaysian governemnt.

#July 2011. Spend some time with my mentor! AI! Love you and you will always be my inspiration! <3

#July 2011. Sea Rafting.

#July 2011. Nara in Korea! My first ever korean roomate from Sunmoon university. So glad that we still keep in touch until today even though now she;s overseas studying! Love you! <3


#July 2011. Sunmoon family dinner. <3 오래만에 만났다! 기분 좋다! 가족처럼 같이 지내던 친구들..오래만에 봐도 어색하지 않았다. Thats why we are family, man! <3


#July 2011. The day i met Kobe in Person!!!! Not a fan yet still excited!


#July 2011. Weilin and Weihoong in Korea! Primary schoolmate and senior! Learn so much about each other lives and peace & human right movements.

#July 2011. Most meaningful event in 2011. MY BFF SARAH and VERN visits KOREA! Again! :)))
Need i say more? Love you muchie babe! Thank you for everything! Intended and unintended! Everything! <3


#July 2011. Spending time with Yoshimi ( Miss Japan runner up 2008) and Levy Li ( Miss Malaysia 2008). The best part about hanging out with them is, i dont feel left out at all! xD Spent time catching up, reminiscent naive past and doing stupid stuff when we used to be e partner in crime, kap chai, ball together... until distance grew out of us. Still loving the Sulin that you still is! <3



#July 2011. My romantic birthday dinner dates! <3





#August 2011. KAIST-ICIST Conference. AWESOMENESS. Learn so much from there. I never knew i enjoy learning about IT & Technology which was related to my major.

#August 2011. The kickstart to my 'kindergarden teaching' career. I teach Malaysian culture to kindergarden kids in Korea. :)) 선생님한테서 전해진 지식들을 받은만큼 사람들과 공유하고 싶다. Start with early elementary education. I am happy and glad that i got this role to educate young children hoping someday when they grew out to be a better person and their own unique way. Kindergarden is also the place where i meet my little angels/devils. 너무 행복한 일이다.



#August 2011. KhimSeng in Korea. Nami Island. Memorable one. Spending good times with people in my life. Sorry been ignorant these days..stress.. <3

#August 2011. Janoah in Korea. We had heart to heart talk like never. Exchange so much about ourselves. I am so glad that i brought out some happiness to you and your mother! Even celebrated birthday together. May God bless you and keep the smile on your face always. Love you.

#August 2011. First ever dramatic phase of changes/haircut in my life. The point of no returning back. I must say, the turning point of my life and incredible things took place by itself. Feels like i am a living miracle everyday though there are ups and downs everyday since. But still enjoyed every bits of it. Embracing life like i never did before. Again, i still rant like usual.


#August 2011. Carmen's graduation. Another sister that taught me to look at life through another perspective. Take things easy and seriously at the same time.

#August 2011. The unofficial Malaysian non-JPA Students Association gathering dinner. Took time to meet and talk to other Malaysians and learn about their life.

#September 2011. Ocean World with people of my life. Great time.


#September 2011. Ajid & Kyle birthday. People in my life.


#September 2011. Pot Luck Aidilfitri with Inhaians. <3



#October 2011. FETMA. The day i took courage and attended a Malaysian event. People who knows what i been through would know why i have fear to ever meet another Malaysians outside INHA. I ran out of comfort zone and i survived pretty well.

#October 2011. Khimseng in Korea, again. People of my life.

#October 2011. Spending time with lovesssss.

#October 2011. Adele in Korea.

#November 2011. 독도홍보단 Where i get to visit 울릉도 for 4 days 3 nights for free while promoting "Dokdo belongs to Korea." at the same time i get to introduce Malaysia to other foreigners as well as Koreas. Win-win situation. Above all, I contributed a little but received abundant. Thank you, Korea! <3

#November 2011. People of my life. 동아리 friends.


#November 2011. Quiwan's farewell dinner. People of my life.

#December 2011. Meeting 吴老师. My primary school teacher. From 3rd grade to 6th grade.The teacher that leaves impact in my whole entire life! She is responsible for moulding part of who i am today and i am glad we are still keeping in touch! Thank you! <3

#December 2011. Second-phase of my dramatic changes. Mushroom/봉우리 haircut. Cute not?



#December 2011. Vision Korea 아시아 유학생정책 프로젝트. Learn so much here too. PResentation skills. 논문 쓰기 등~

#December 2011. Christmas eve with Reen @Thai Massage.

#December 2011. Christmas with Brandon & Simin doing crazy stuff in Hongdae until 6am in the morning!
Thats for it now.
Gonna spend my very last day of 2011 attending Yiruma concert and 그대와 만났으면 좋겠다. 아직 확정된 것이 아니지만..그래도 ..한숨...
Anyway!
Happy NEW YEAR OF DRAGON!
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