Im paranoid.
I hate that people could see me weakness just by the outer surface of me.
I hate even more that im over concerned about how they think.
Im paranoid.
I failed my Stats. ㅠㅠㅠ
I really dont want to retake again next semester. I HOPE the PROF gives me markah kesian. ㅠㅠㅠ
Parents dont understand but music or MP3 has become inscreasing important among students. Let me tell you why music has become a necesssity for a student. This is based from my personal experience and my observation throughtout my a week stay in the library. 99% of students owns a MP3 ok. Im the 1% who doesnt have it. But i have my Sony Erricsson phone though but all my songs are outdated.
Why is it important?
I'm not saying nor encouraging to listen to music all the time. Just dont abuse it. But students should agree with me that they NEED music. ^^
The Amazing culture that you hardly find among the ballers in Malaysia..
Last but not least. Im happy to be part of the hardworking society. wakaka. Too bad they are smart and im not which makes me feel like a croackoach all the time and thank God im a girl because peeps loves meeeeeee (:
I surrender to caffein and nikotin.
I ended up depending on caffein to keeps my engine work. And nikotin..bcos im a second-hand smoker and thanks to somebody who smokes and leave all the smells all over the books. I hate perfume, but im getting used to the smell of it. Though, sometimes it suffocates me. I dont know what give me the determination to put up with all these bullshits.
I swear after tomorrow if i dont sleep i'll be a zombie.
2 papers down 4 more to go. ^^
I like the feeling of being awake and study. I felt happy. I am grateful that im actually given a chance to pursue my education. I felt better everday though im not doing well in my studies. Is a real challenge to me. Like i said before, back in high school i put litte effort and i get fruitful return. Not really la_ but cukup makan. Unlike now.. i sacrificed so much i ended being dissapointed.
Is 630am now. Exactly 32 hours more to my hardest subject , stats and calculus quiz. After that i could catch my 24hours sleep to pay back what i left. *happiness* awaits me! Screw my korean language night class~
Crap. Kena jalan kaki to library under the rain..ㅠㅠㅠ
The Advantages of being Insomnia :
24 hours a day is MORE than ENOUGH.
Ball more
More Caffein (so unlike me)
More time to read story books
Able to catch Series like criminal mind and Korean Drama and lately Mnet Scandal(sarah's fault) :)
Wakaka. Im liking it except that im missing my bed, alot! But when i do sleep i sleep more than 5 hours!! ^^
Exam starts today! 12 more days and i'll be in the comfort of my REAL BED (MALAYSIA)!!!~
CAnt WAIT!! :)
如果说了后悔 是不是一切就能倒退
回忆多么美 活着多么狼狈
为什么这个世界 总要叫人尝伤悲
我不能了解 也不想了解
我好想好想飞 逃离这个疯狂世界
那么多苦 那么多累
那么多莫名的泪水 我好想好想飞
逃离这个疯狂世界 如果是你 发现了我
也别将我挽回 想了你一整夜
再也想不起你的脸 你是一种感觉
写在夏夜晚风里面 青春是挽不回的水
转眼消失在指间 用力的浪费 再用力的后悔
who are we to complain that we dont have enough?
who are we to complain that we are not happy?
who are we to complain that life is tough.
Everytime you feel as if your world is going to an end, observe your surroudings.
Be grateful. Earn respect from that.
쟁애는 몸이 불편하지만 불행하지 않는다.
Hi, is me again.
Half and hour more to my final paper of my mid-term. Statistic with Excel Application.
I like my school you know.
Despite having troubles with my computer, i can still online everywhere in the school area compound. Computer and internet is provided everywhere. Korea is good. Malaysia should emulate their system. By taking citizens 요구 as their main priority.
Malaysia full of corrupted politicians. I dont know what to do with Malaysia.
Anyway, good luck to myself!
My whole life i have never been this competitive.
I know i should take things step by step.
But is out of my control.
It seems like, i want to be good in everything.
Not that i want to be the best or the top of the class, i just want to be good.
I want to be in speaking, like others. Who are loud spoken, who speaks fluently without hesitating..
I want to beat the guys at the court eventhough im a girl..
I want to do well in my exams so i could sustain my scholarship student status and probably obtain a scholarship for my graduate school.
I want to get a good job to secure a good bright future.
I want to be rich so i could bring my mum and bro travel around the world. And so i can adopt a children o 2 so complete my mission in life.
Thats all.
But is not within my reach.
I know those who are the top have climbed the highlands of desires to be where they are right now. Struggling is part of the challenge. I really shouldnt be complaining. So what others makes you feel small they just dont want to appear small in front of you.
Im gaining momentum. Screw the so called "superior"
내가 달리는 길은 Love, Love, Love, Love
허나 그 길엔 온통 덫, 덫, 덫, 덫
피할 수 없는 함정은 맘의 겁, 겁, 겁, 겁
마치 늪처럼 용기를 삼켜 점점..
난 작아져 사라져가는 얼굴의 밝은 표정
내 고백에 등돌린 채 외면할 까봐 자꾸 두려워
바늘 같은 걱정을 베고서 오지 않는 잠을 청하고
꿈보다 더 생생한 네 생각 때문에 끝내 밤을 새워
Feels like insomnia, ah ah x 4
너라는 곳을 향해 외로워도 가는 길
Love, Love, Love, Love
몇 번을 넘어져도 일어서 갈 테지 But, But, But, But
잠마저 못 들도록 너를 보다 걸려든 병, 병, 병, 병
네 사랑 갖지 못하면 나을 수 없지 영영..
영원토록 죽도록 너의 허락만 기다리고
몇 년이든 몇 생애든 너를 위해 존재하겠지만
바늘 같은 걱정을 베고서 오지 않는 잠을 청하고
꿈보다 더 생생한 네 생각 때문에 끝내 밤을 새워
Feels like insomnia, ah ah x 4
ah.. 불타는 이 사랑..
그리움에 지쳐 내리는 비 같은 눈물에 젖어도 식지 않는걸..
매일 입술을 물고서 오지 않는 잠을 청하고
꿈보다 더 생생한 네 생각 때문에 끝내 밤을 새워
Feels like insomnia, ah ah x 8
Well, that is not what i want to express about.. at least.
Im having insomnia lately. Worrying about finishing assigments and counting days to final.. worrying about doing well to level up with my scholarship student status..keeping updated with my korean sisters. School is making me stress yet i can sense of satisfaction out of it. I am not depressed that i cant sleep in fact i feel is something to shout about. akaka. The only things im worrying is that before i realize it im getting old~
phew. counting days to my return. 47days ^^ and i might get a job!! pray pray pray (:
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